and now, life is great. shidi is getting married in 8 days. aku ada sikit excited. kasut. baju. shawl. kecoh kecoh kenduri. argh! lace tak jahit lagi! and ada lah prepare cili segenggam dua, in case kalau ada yang tanya "kamu pulak bila?"

dan bila teringat shidi, rasa ouch sikit. time flies like a rocket! rasa macam baru haritu main rumah rumah dengan dia. baru haritu hantar dia balik asrama, stuck dalam traffic jam, pening-pening. rasa macam baru haritu tengok drama cina sama-sama, hari-hari.

alahai. rindu abang dedemok bucuk bucuk tu.

rasa macam nak peluk dia kuat-kuat. taknak bagi kawin. eh? boleh? hahahahaha

mama cakap marriage is a happy things. tapi aku takut. people might think it's good to have in-laws, tapi aku takut abang-abang punya attention is being divided. and now its happening.

hmm. tak apa lah. dah besar kaaaann.

and a few days ago, aku ada deep conversation dengan abang lain mak lain ayah berleher lipat. bercerita pung pang pung pang.

and i felt like half naked. iyelah. bagi aku, my story is my dignity. and my dignity is the one yang akan cover my personality. it's like... urm... dignity is the clothes for my personalities. boleh gitu? tapi nak simpan pun, rasa macam nanti benda tak clear. jadi huru hara. hmm.

eh. ke macam tak faham?

but never mind.

jadi, dia ada pesan..

"mmm. tapi jangan buat kerja bodoh nak menunggu macam dulu"

kerja bodoh? aku gelak kecil. tapi, dalam hati, ouch. hahahaha.