"kau tade rasa nak ada boyfriend ke?"
at that moment, my mind suddenly blank. should I have a boyfriend? (silly question, i know)
" my friends are around me. plus, my family are always there when i need them. kenapa nak kena ada boyfriend?"
tapi, diorang cakap, kawan dan family tak sama. bila fikir balik, to be honest, i'm not ready. yes. i'm not ready to have a boyfriend. having a boyfriend need a big commitment.
'kalau ada boyfriend tapi tak bagi commitment, baik jadi kawan je, ye dak?'
for me, having a boyfriend need a great sacrifice and a huge commitment and it's a risky decision. it's like choosing your future husband.
2 jam temankan mama tengok cerita korea akan jadi satu jam sebab satu jam lagi bergayut dengan boyfriend. baking after this would probably just for mr boyfriend sebab konon-konon nak tunjuk sweet. dan yang paling ikhlas, no more 24hours-worrying-about-the-parent cause probably my mind will thinking of him for every single minute. itu mungkin apa yang akan jadi dekat aku.
and there's should be no more try and error when you have a boyfriend. it's more like getting engage. you meet that one person and he'll be your husband. ha! takut tak dengar?
kalau takat nak kenal hati budi, kawan je pun boleh!
ahha! sebab formula aku, adalah lebih seronok untuk berada dalam fasa berkawan or what we called friendship phase in process of knowing someone. sebab selalunya, dalam perkiraan dan pengalaman aku, masa tengah nak 'in process of making a relationship' aku tiba-tiba ada rasa tak minat. and i'll leave it. and awkwardness happen after that.
and that one thing yang aku rasa aku tak patut lagi ada boyfriend. nak kenal Yang Mencipta pun terkial-kial lagi, inikan pulak nak belajar cintakan Dia.
" and should I love a stranger, that I just met?"
eh, tapi jangan ingat aku cakap macam ni aku heartless, emotionless. i do admire someone. but i leave it totally to the fate. sebab aku rasanya belum masanya lagi untuk aku fikir pasal benda ni.
'tapi nak sesuatu kena usaha'ahha! betul. and aku ada usaha aku sendiri yang tak nampak dek mata kasar. (okay. i have none actually).
mungkin, nantilah, satu hari nanti aku usahakan sesuatu.
okay. tiba- tiba aku rasa geli cakap benda ni. dah. nuff said.
may peace be upon you.